1 00:00:09,449 --> 00:00:06,300 there we go we are recording hello 2 00:00:14,750 --> 00:00:09,459 everyone this is episode 10 part 1 3 00:00:18,390 --> 00:00:14,760 Sascha Chris J this is my chronology now 4 00:00:20,550 --> 00:00:18,400 parlours well I was given a salary T 5 00:00:24,990 --> 00:00:20,560 stuff and not a lot of the paranormal 6 00:00:26,760 --> 00:00:25,000 which we will go back and touches yes 7 00:00:29,790 --> 00:00:26,770 you know because probably stuff I say 8 00:00:35,239 --> 00:00:29,800 will trigger stuff in your head from 9 00:00:40,200 --> 00:00:35,249 what you've got to put up way yeah so 10 00:00:46,309 --> 00:00:40,210 yeah right mines mostly paranormal at 11 00:00:52,590 --> 00:00:50,579 every UFO and ete oh I don't remember 12 00:00:55,049 --> 00:00:52,600 much as I've got a couple of little 13 00:00:56,639 --> 00:00:55,059 memories which augo answer I've got a 14 00:00:59,389 --> 00:00:56,649 few things written to Anita writes went 15 00:01:04,369 --> 00:00:59,399 down that I remember just a second ago I 16 00:01:08,160 --> 00:01:04,379 got involved with a Kaos temple nights 17 00:01:10,080 --> 00:01:08,170 you know weird way wasn't actually part 18 00:01:14,069 --> 00:01:10,090 of the temple I wasn't an initiate I 19 00:01:16,880 --> 00:01:14,079 wasn't you know K up not unofficial but 20 00:01:20,609 --> 00:01:16,890 I did do some stuff with them and also 21 00:01:23,099 --> 00:01:20,619 my magical working groups so you know 22 00:01:25,109 --> 00:01:23,109 like people who say oh he did magic keep 23 00:01:28,649 --> 00:01:25,119 attracted it to here but it's been 24 00:01:31,170 --> 00:01:28,659 around me since I was a kid so that 25 00:01:35,190 --> 00:01:31,180 argument falls on its ass completely cuz 26 00:01:39,139 --> 00:01:35,200 about this from even literally a baby 27 00:01:41,669 --> 00:01:39,149 they cared so I was born in November 28 00:01:48,419 --> 00:01:41,679 1970 I was actually born on the day of 29 00:01:51,090 --> 00:01:48,429 the dead that doesn't surprise me so I 30 00:01:58,080 --> 00:01:51,100 think you know sometimes I wonder about 31 00:02:06,389 --> 00:01:58,090 that girl would you side I should be on 32 00:02:13,449 --> 00:02:06,399 in November and I didn't want to come 33 00:02:19,250 --> 00:02:16,520 yeah I was talking to Phil Costello 34 00:02:24,259 --> 00:02:19,260 about a book that I read called et 101 35 00:02:26,150 --> 00:02:24,269 and it's like a you know like a manual 36 00:02:28,070 --> 00:02:26,160 for people who weren't paying attention 37 00:02:31,339 --> 00:02:28,080 in class we father came to earth to be 38 00:02:32,420 --> 00:02:31,349 human and it's for me because it's like 39 00:02:35,780 --> 00:02:32,430 walk-ins 40 00:02:47,949 --> 00:02:35,790 there's like crawling and I said I'm not 41 00:02:52,819 --> 00:02:47,959 crawling the crawl out it's too scary so 42 00:02:56,150 --> 00:02:52,829 when I was on I'm not sure what happened 43 00:02:59,830 --> 00:02:56,160 but anyway we ended up living in Leake 44 00:03:05,180 --> 00:03:02,930 basically being a complete [\h__\h] it 45 00:03:08,180 --> 00:03:05,190 got knocked down after not in that many 46 00:03:10,580 --> 00:03:08,190 years because it was that bad the 47 00:03:12,110 --> 00:03:10,590 convict maternity Hank so make of that 48 00:03:17,000 --> 00:03:12,120 what you will it was that kind of place 49 00:03:19,039 --> 00:03:17,010 lots of people on benefits but people 50 00:03:22,069 --> 00:03:19,049 with low wages good my father owned 51 00:03:24,319 --> 00:03:22,079 houses I think you know most people who 52 00:03:26,720 --> 00:03:24,329 ended up in there were kind of like my 53 00:03:32,180 --> 00:03:26,730 parents you know just young couples of 54 00:03:35,809 --> 00:03:32,190 the baby so like I say I was born back 55 00:03:38,990 --> 00:03:35,819 end of 1970 so at some point in my 56 00:03:44,150 --> 00:03:39,000 little baby doom I used to go dysphasia 57 00:03:46,520 --> 00:03:44,160 vanish from my car and you know they 58 00:03:49,430 --> 00:03:46,530 would literally ransack the entire 59 00:03:53,270 --> 00:03:49,440 flight looking for me and I can remember 60 00:03:54,620 --> 00:03:53,280 the flash it was quite a size then I'm 61 00:03:56,479 --> 00:03:54,630 gonna show if they did phone the police 62 00:03:59,809 --> 00:03:56,489 other ones and I found the police and I 63 00:04:02,479 --> 00:03:59,819 just walked up behind them and found me 64 00:04:05,180 --> 00:04:02,489 in a wardrobe remember them really old 65 00:04:07,220 --> 00:04:05,190 wood and heavy walnut wardrobes know 66 00:04:09,490 --> 00:04:07,230 they had this wardrobe you what would 67 00:04:12,199 --> 00:04:09,500 you open you had all these little 68 00:04:16,759 --> 00:04:12,209 drawers II and these little signs and 69 00:04:19,789 --> 00:04:16,769 cranky chief and all that kind of thing 70 00:04:24,590 --> 00:04:19,799 it was like not very similar like that 71 00:04:29,890 --> 00:04:24,600 yeah and on it and 72 00:04:34,100 --> 00:04:29,900 so I am worth a few Bob that now anyway 73 00:04:38,240 --> 00:04:34,110 and it was it took me dad and another 74 00:04:43,150 --> 00:04:38,250 man to my dad you know massive six foot 75 00:04:45,830 --> 00:04:43,160 three richest house basically so it took 76 00:04:48,560 --> 00:04:45,840 two people to move that wardrobe that 77 00:04:51,170 --> 00:04:48,570 was the wild joke I ended up in under 78 00:04:53,540 --> 00:04:51,180 blankets with the - shot I mean out put 79 00:05:01,280 --> 00:04:53,550 shut the door don't know and there was a 80 00:05:05,630 --> 00:05:01,290 baby so it weird so we have a lot of 81 00:05:08,120 --> 00:05:05,640 memories in that place like well I don't 82 00:05:10,330 --> 00:05:08,130 I don't remember a lot of anything weird 83 00:05:14,600 --> 00:05:10,340 but there's one thing that happened and 84 00:05:17,510 --> 00:05:14,610 my whole body screams that it was 85 00:05:18,800 --> 00:05:17,520 influenced this place where we lived was 86 00:05:23,780 --> 00:05:18,810 very negative there was a lot of 87 00:05:25,610 --> 00:05:23,790 negative stuff going on as if some this 88 00:05:28,670 --> 00:05:25,620 black guy was kicking my mom starring 89 00:05:30,590 --> 00:05:28,680 right that doesn't work she found the 90 00:05:31,730 --> 00:05:30,600 police just said somebody was kicking 91 00:05:32,840 --> 00:05:31,740 her dog she didn't know who it was she 92 00:05:37,520 --> 00:05:32,850 just knew someone he was kicking her 93 00:05:38,990 --> 00:05:37,530 during this guy and they said it's my 94 00:05:40,640 --> 00:05:39,000 mom that she was just trying to get him 95 00:05:42,530 --> 00:05:40,650 in trouble I'm pretending that she 96 00:05:45,200 --> 00:05:42,540 didn't know who he was and that she did 97 00:05:49,430 --> 00:05:45,210 know who he was you know and that just 98 00:05:50,930 --> 00:05:49,440 being trouble trying to get him arrested 99 00:05:53,540 --> 00:05:50,940 for nothing because she's falling out 100 00:05:55,760 --> 00:05:53,550 with him or whatever so if the police 101 00:05:59,630 --> 00:05:55,770 didn't believe women which it was the 102 00:06:03,470 --> 00:05:59,640 seventies I mean you know but that was 103 00:06:05,390 --> 00:06:03,480 the can't place it was so this one 104 00:06:11,870 --> 00:06:05,400 particular - need to drink one asked 105 00:06:15,440 --> 00:06:11,880 Andre so at least a tequila day it was 106 00:06:20,810 --> 00:06:15,450 too far for November 1974 which was two 107 00:06:24,020 --> 00:06:20,820 days after my fast birthday and so I was 108 00:06:28,550 --> 00:06:24,030 four years old two days boggling the Day 109 00:06:30,380 --> 00:06:28,560 of the Dead castle would be one time so 110 00:06:33,170 --> 00:06:30,390 I remember every single thing about this 111 00:06:34,970 --> 00:06:33,180 like it's like literally isn't I was 112 00:06:38,330 --> 00:06:34,980 thinking about earlier it's like this is 113 00:06:41,480 --> 00:06:38,340 so clear in my head 114 00:06:43,430 --> 00:06:41,490 like like looking at you I haven't 115 00:06:45,860 --> 00:06:43,440 probably haven't got another memory as 116 00:06:48,409 --> 00:06:45,870 clear as this insert it's like Karma's 117 00:06:50,930 --> 00:06:48,419 like my body's telling me something as I 118 00:06:53,210 --> 00:06:50,940 I can't say this for sure I think this 119 00:06:55,850 --> 00:06:53,220 was an influenced event think about how 120 00:06:58,640 --> 00:06:55,860 negative the place was where I lived and 121 00:07:01,129 --> 00:06:58,650 then I get Macy's attract negative 122 00:07:04,370 --> 00:07:01,139 things that place would have been 123 00:07:11,530 --> 00:07:04,380 crawling like it is in Bradford down it 124 00:07:14,030 --> 00:07:11,540 you know that I could not yeah so anyway 125 00:07:17,750 --> 00:07:14,040 so my mom and dad have gone out and my 126 00:07:21,469 --> 00:07:17,760 uncle is babysit him and far I sleep in 127 00:07:23,420 --> 00:07:21,479 their bed with them and I would always 128 00:07:24,920 --> 00:07:23,430 get out of my bed and you know end up 129 00:07:27,020 --> 00:07:24,930 screaming running into their room for 130 00:07:30,529 --> 00:07:27,030 whatever reason but they said they've 131 00:07:32,659 --> 00:07:30,539 gone out so remember when I would 132 00:07:35,860 --> 00:07:32,669 remember seeing a bottle on top of this 133 00:07:40,640 --> 00:07:35,870 on well not I think it was well not 134 00:07:44,840 --> 00:07:40,650 cupboard yeah what's that 135 00:07:47,960 --> 00:07:44,850 so I went and got the stool no my mom at 136 00:07:50,090 --> 00:07:47,970 this kidney-shaped dressing table would 137 00:07:52,430 --> 00:07:50,100 have like three mirrors on it and it had 138 00:07:54,379 --> 00:07:52,440 a long Curt and went to the other little 139 00:07:56,810 --> 00:07:54,389 flowers I mean it was like actually the 140 00:08:01,250 --> 00:07:56,820 same color as your top yeah a little 141 00:08:04,339 --> 00:08:01,260 flowers on that yeah that's a pale green 142 00:08:06,140 --> 00:08:04,349 and the stool itself also had the 143 00:08:09,260 --> 00:08:06,150 curtain thing on there really Chris a 144 00:08:11,150 --> 00:08:09,270 yeah and then so that's there underneath 145 00:08:13,070 --> 00:08:11,160 the window then there's my dad's bed 146 00:08:15,260 --> 00:08:13,080 next to the bed is this coffee table 147 00:08:18,260 --> 00:08:15,270 that my dad's made which is basically 148 00:08:22,040 --> 00:08:18,270 just four bits of foie gras with a flat 149 00:08:34,399 --> 00:08:22,050 top on it and some tiles yeah yeah 150 00:08:36,829 --> 00:08:34,409 everything what I got the stool and I 151 00:08:39,230 --> 00:08:36,839 put it on the coffee table I got on the 152 00:08:41,449 --> 00:08:39,240 bed I got on the stool and I got off on 153 00:08:43,219 --> 00:08:41,459 that cupboard and I got them tablets I 154 00:08:46,850 --> 00:08:43,229 hope them this help didn't have 155 00:08:50,420 --> 00:08:46,860 childproof leads in the 70s it was top 156 00:08:51,740 --> 00:08:50,430 and remember putting him in my mouth and 157 00:08:55,340 --> 00:08:51,750 count into 10 158 00:09:00,830 --> 00:08:55,350 and we talk excited to burn it back come 159 00:09:06,410 --> 00:09:00,840 back up on the cupboard got off got the 160 00:09:08,360 --> 00:09:06,420 stool put it back laid on the bed I mean 161 00:09:12,400 --> 00:09:08,370 woman dad came back however many hours 162 00:09:15,980 --> 00:09:12,410 later as a four-year-old I'd taken ten 163 00:09:20,150 --> 00:09:15,990 mo garden tablets sleeping tablets of my 164 00:09:21,710 --> 00:09:20,160 mom son won't tell me about this I don't 165 00:09:26,930 --> 00:09:21,720 really know the full story 166 00:09:28,790 --> 00:09:26,940 yeah I was in a coma and I don't you 167 00:09:32,210 --> 00:09:28,800 know I don't know if I was clinically 168 00:09:34,940 --> 00:09:32,220 dead at any point but anyway I was in a 169 00:09:40,580 --> 00:09:34,950 very bad way and I almost didn't live in 170 00:09:44,510 --> 00:09:40,590 fact it's bit of a miracle I did survive 171 00:09:47,720 --> 00:09:44,520 ten Malka dongs cuz so super tablets in 172 00:09:54,980 --> 00:09:47,730 the seventh is you know heavy-duty jumps 173 00:09:59,480 --> 00:09:54,990 anyway so it's so clear in my head I 174 00:10:00,620 --> 00:09:59,490 feel like you know when you body you 175 00:10:03,290 --> 00:10:00,630 feel like your body's telling you 176 00:10:04,790 --> 00:10:03,300 something and I'm Gary mumble friends 177 00:10:07,220 --> 00:10:04,800 doing nothing that it does like you 178 00:10:09,440 --> 00:10:07,230 can't accept that as as an actual aid 179 00:10:11,960 --> 00:10:09,450 because you don't know it you just think 180 00:10:13,940 --> 00:10:11,970 it as I can I don't think this I'm not 181 00:10:16,730 --> 00:10:13,950 thinking this I'm feeling it my thoughts 182 00:10:18,440 --> 00:10:16,740 are going you don't know that but you 183 00:10:22,700 --> 00:10:18,450 know it's my body that it's making my 184 00:10:28,960 --> 00:10:22,710 brain they set this thing so you know 185 00:10:31,790 --> 00:10:28,970 anyway I think because the fun event I 186 00:10:36,950 --> 00:10:31,800 opened a door that the doors meet opens 187 00:10:40,190 --> 00:10:36,960 yeah yeah you know you go over there and 188 00:10:43,940 --> 00:10:40,200 you come back I mean in some cultures 189 00:10:46,220 --> 00:10:43,950 that have a name for me I would be some 190 00:10:50,900 --> 00:10:46,230 shadow a walker or something like that 191 00:10:56,829 --> 00:10:50,910 probably and I think that's probably why 192 00:10:59,750 --> 00:10:56,839 about all these paranormal stuff I mean 193 00:11:01,910 --> 00:10:59,760 you know in the cut where are you going 194 00:11:03,510 --> 00:11:01,920 in the car man you know some people just 195 00:11:05,340 --> 00:11:03,520 got you just 196 00:11:08,600 --> 00:11:05,350 not fortunately but you just saying you 197 00:11:11,010 --> 00:11:08,610 know where else but I don't really but 198 00:11:12,630 --> 00:11:11,020 don't believe it because I've seen so 199 00:11:15,720 --> 00:11:12,640 much stuff and I have tries to convince 200 00:11:18,260 --> 00:11:15,730 every doctor in the world that I'm a 201 00:11:24,420 --> 00:11:18,270 crazy person and non-living Maracana 202 00:11:26,850 --> 00:11:24,430 exactly you know really I'd really 203 00:11:28,080 --> 00:11:26,860 thought a lot of mine and nobody all of 204 00:11:29,640 --> 00:11:28,090 the people that I've ever watched any 205 00:11:31,530 --> 00:11:29,650 video of me 206 00:11:34,230 --> 00:11:31,540 ending me saying anything and then 207 00:11:36,450 --> 00:11:34,240 questioning my sanity if I times like my 208 00:11:37,950 --> 00:11:36,460 attend it might be somewhere near the 209 00:11:41,220 --> 00:11:37,960 amount of times I've questioned my own 210 00:11:43,830 --> 00:11:41,230 son that a so I don't walk around going 211 00:11:57,200 --> 00:11:43,840 I know this is a fact and I'm like 212 00:12:01,500 --> 00:11:57,210 worker are just stranger from history so 213 00:12:02,730 --> 00:12:01,510 another time I'm in that flat my mom had 214 00:12:06,270 --> 00:12:02,740 some friends I think they were Carl 215 00:12:08,190 --> 00:12:06,280 Katherine Jed and that woman dad had 216 00:12:10,500 --> 00:12:08,200 gone out and left we were staying there 217 00:12:13,050 --> 00:12:10,510 and then we were in the room and my 218 00:12:14,550 --> 00:12:13,060 sister you know topping and tailing and 219 00:12:18,690 --> 00:12:14,560 the bed but there was no Kurt and at the 220 00:12:21,330 --> 00:12:18,700 window I'm like LEDs I can't sleep can't 221 00:12:23,190 --> 00:12:21,340 sleep oh I could never sleep used to 222 00:12:25,440 --> 00:12:23,200 play little games in me Ed and breathing 223 00:12:33,390 --> 00:12:25,450 things I found out as an adult learn 224 00:12:36,030 --> 00:12:33,400 meditation techniques anyway so I'm 225 00:12:38,370 --> 00:12:36,040 staring at this light out of this window 226 00:12:40,890 --> 00:12:38,380 it's quite a long you know quite a long 227 00:12:42,930 --> 00:12:40,900 window and I'm just looking up at the 228 00:12:45,210 --> 00:12:42,940 lightness I can see the other sadness 229 00:12:49,140 --> 00:12:45,220 flats the walkway as you can see there's 230 00:12:51,960 --> 00:12:49,150 like you know like oh the lights that 231 00:12:53,910 --> 00:12:51,970 they have it's not like come from the 232 00:12:58,410 --> 00:12:53,920 same an hour from the wall but not you 233 00:13:01,770 --> 00:12:58,420 can't really see you know so I could see 234 00:13:04,350 --> 00:13:01,780 the opposite balcony just the top of it 235 00:13:06,000 --> 00:13:04,360 and the top of the building and then I 236 00:13:09,870 --> 00:13:06,010 was looking at this light and I thought 237 00:13:11,640 --> 00:13:09,880 I'm gonna make that like get bigger and 238 00:13:12,900 --> 00:13:11,650 I'm gonna make it you know I was just so 239 00:13:15,420 --> 00:13:12,910 I'm gonna make it get bigger and I 240 00:13:16,889 --> 00:13:15,430 stared he got we get and bigger and 241 00:13:19,049 --> 00:13:16,899 bigger and bigger and bigger 242 00:13:23,329 --> 00:13:19,059 and it like fill the whole window so the 243 00:13:27,900 --> 00:13:23,339 whole window was white right duh I was 244 00:13:33,989 --> 00:13:27,910 far maybe at the time my head I thought 245 00:13:37,109 --> 00:13:33,999 I have superpowers fly downstairs at 246 00:13:41,699 --> 00:13:37,119 stunned it's up at 6 days and let's 247 00:13:44,429 --> 00:13:41,709 start flying and a jump but I'd always 248 00:13:47,460 --> 00:13:44,439 think the wall at the bar oh no I never 249 00:13:51,720 --> 00:13:47,470 got anywhere but I honestly because of 250 00:13:55,549 --> 00:13:51,730 the plane incidence I always thought 251 00:13:57,780 --> 00:13:55,559 that in this slide I could actually fly 252 00:14:00,299 --> 00:13:57,790 just totally freaked me out 253 00:14:03,689 --> 00:14:00,309 I was talking to Philip Kinsella there 254 00:14:06,150 --> 00:14:03,699 before yesterday and I was little 255 00:14:09,210 --> 00:14:06,160 it used to piss me off that I couldn't 256 00:14:12,179 --> 00:14:09,220 fly and I would be like playing around 257 00:14:14,609 --> 00:14:12,189 in my head I knew I could fly and I 258 00:14:23,100 --> 00:14:14,619 couldn't see where why can't I do it 259 00:14:25,889 --> 00:14:23,110 now used to run like mad that I couldn't 260 00:14:32,340 --> 00:14:25,899 do it and it's really really agitate me 261 00:14:35,910 --> 00:14:32,350 because I think you can do it but 262 00:14:38,999 --> 00:14:35,920 obviously not in this yeah and that's 263 00:14:42,119 --> 00:14:39,009 exactly what I would like I took stakes 264 00:14:47,610 --> 00:14:42,129 and then used to run fanatic get it top 265 00:14:49,379 --> 00:14:47,620 start looking fluffy me arms out there 266 00:14:51,869 --> 00:14:49,389 but it's the only way that I'm you but I 267 00:14:52,769 --> 00:14:51,879 knew I could fly but obviously I 268 00:14:55,199 --> 00:14:52,779 couldn't 269 00:15:16,710 --> 00:14:55,209 so I'd end up with in a heap vomits 270 00:15:21,720 --> 00:15:16,720 Tatsumi so yeah that was that then we 271 00:15:24,720 --> 00:15:21,730 moved to a cottage which was 300 years 272 00:15:30,540 --> 00:15:24,730 old in secrecy right all right safe 273 00:15:32,700 --> 00:15:30,550 craft so if I was old you'll give me 274 00:15:34,320 --> 00:15:32,710 where it is well because I want to 275 00:15:44,010 --> 00:15:34,330 goggle it and see what's around that 276 00:15:47,820 --> 00:15:44,020 area you know yeah so right so we bought 277 00:15:54,510 --> 00:15:47,830 this house three years old now it was 278 00:15:59,370 --> 00:15:54,520 just a little cottage brick you know it 279 00:16:02,430 --> 00:15:59,380 was like maybe about ten and this was 280 00:16:04,590 --> 00:16:02,440 the old old village and our house was 281 00:16:08,760 --> 00:16:04,600 called at the time stocks rise it was 282 00:16:11,340 --> 00:16:08,770 three stocks rise number three and the 283 00:16:15,690 --> 00:16:11,350 yeah I think he maybe had something to 284 00:16:17,610 --> 00:16:15,700 do with local village law whatever you 285 00:16:19,890 --> 00:16:17,620 know with it being the stock because it 286 00:16:23,490 --> 00:16:19,900 was literally the stocks the next to the 287 00:16:28,170 --> 00:16:23,500 house so maybe somebody who lived in 288 00:16:31,950 --> 00:16:28,180 that house meted out justice or whatever 289 00:16:33,540 --> 00:16:31,960 not know yeah so been mom in mama she 290 00:16:36,150 --> 00:16:33,550 said that I remember even telling us 291 00:16:39,690 --> 00:16:36,160 that she'd woken up and she'd seen these 292 00:16:42,960 --> 00:16:39,700 fluorescent green like corkscrews that 293 00:16:45,360 --> 00:16:42,970 were like pigs tails but there was just 294 00:16:48,740 --> 00:16:45,370 loads of them they were all like all in 295 00:16:53,370 --> 00:16:48,750 the air and just turning you know like 296 00:16:55,140 --> 00:16:53,380 Nick in the bedroom in their bedroom 297 00:16:58,080 --> 00:16:55,150 right right yeah 298 00:17:00,650 --> 00:16:58,090 when we moved in this house right it was 299 00:17:04,170 --> 00:17:00,660 like a mistake 300 00:17:04,590 --> 00:17:04,180 they literally the steps came out of the 301 00:17:06,990 --> 00:17:04,600 world 302 00:17:08,670 --> 00:17:07,000 there was no banister on this side it 303 00:17:11,610 --> 00:17:08,680 was just like planks of wood sticking 304 00:17:13,290 --> 00:17:11,620 out in the wall which we made the hatch 305 00:17:15,449 --> 00:17:13,300 bigger because it was just like one up 306 00:17:18,060 --> 00:17:15,459 one down basically so the minute the 307 00:17:19,770 --> 00:17:18,070 hunt again and put the staircase so you 308 00:17:21,510 --> 00:17:19,780 opened the door and then there was the 309 00:17:25,860 --> 00:17:21,520 staircase he said they've opening the 310 00:17:27,750 --> 00:17:25,870 door and they steps up coming out of 311 00:17:29,790 --> 00:17:27,760 like that this world now I don't even 312 00:17:32,150 --> 00:17:29,800 remember the steps coming out of that 313 00:17:36,980 --> 00:17:32,160 wall I have no memory of that at all 314 00:17:39,060 --> 00:17:36,990 that's important so we moved and we once 315 00:17:40,620 --> 00:17:39,070 there was something to split the bedroom 316 00:17:42,330 --> 00:17:40,630 at the split the top floor so there's 317 00:17:44,100 --> 00:17:42,340 been with us bedroom a bedroom and a 318 00:17:47,340 --> 00:17:44,110 really tiny bathroom week 319 00:17:52,590 --> 00:17:47,350 just fit the loo sink in a shower and 320 00:17:55,020 --> 00:17:52,600 you're like oh yeah I think we only even 321 00:17:59,910 --> 00:17:55,030 had to Corrine for a while on that door 322 00:18:01,740 --> 00:17:59,920 but anyway so my mom's in their bedroom 323 00:18:03,450 --> 00:18:01,750 and she's seen all these green Karp's 324 00:18:05,910 --> 00:18:03,460 groups you can see that I can remember 325 00:18:08,789 --> 00:18:05,920 that we always a little weird things 326 00:18:11,130 --> 00:18:08,799 happening push them off all of them 327 00:18:13,049 --> 00:18:11,140 because it was so common we just switch 328 00:18:15,630 --> 00:18:13,059 a girl like oh that was you know wait 329 00:18:18,299 --> 00:18:15,640 yeah yeah that's like well now once that 330 00:18:20,360 --> 00:18:18,309 number 16 which is unlisted for people 331 00:18:24,900 --> 00:18:20,370 of Darkness to live on the same street 332 00:18:27,210 --> 00:18:24,910 which 16 is opposite and my house was 333 00:18:29,669 --> 00:18:27,220 very much like that one it's a Sheena 334 00:18:33,200 --> 00:18:29,679 not as bad here but it were really bad 335 00:18:41,970 --> 00:18:33,210 over there for things like that oh yeah 336 00:18:47,640 --> 00:18:41,980 it's a lot worse than that yeah yeah 337 00:18:50,730 --> 00:18:47,650 yeah moments and times so right that was 338 00:18:53,700 --> 00:18:50,740 the green at some point in time in 339 00:18:58,140 --> 00:18:53,710 living in that house right 340 00:18:59,850 --> 00:18:58,150 he used to leave the house all the time 341 00:19:02,700 --> 00:18:59,860 in the middle of the night mom and dad 342 00:19:04,680 --> 00:19:02,710 had to hide the keys because I was just 343 00:19:06,870 --> 00:19:04,690 going out in the middle of the night 344 00:19:08,340 --> 00:19:06,880 getting you know getting dressed and I 345 00:19:11,159 --> 00:19:08,350 could remember waiting for people to go 346 00:19:13,260 --> 00:19:11,169 to sleep and listening because know who 347 00:19:14,909 --> 00:19:13,270 was coming up the stairs even if it was 348 00:19:16,230 --> 00:19:14,919 my dad spends every single one of them 349 00:19:20,090 --> 00:19:16,240 people it needs to come around to our 350 00:19:24,180 --> 00:19:20,100 ass and knew by the sound it was yeah 351 00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:24,190 noise over another like that's Keith 352 00:19:31,380 --> 00:19:27,010 that's Peter yeah cuz I could never 353 00:19:32,430 --> 00:19:31,390 sleep so yeah I believe the house in the 354 00:19:34,049 --> 00:19:32,440 middle of night when everyone had come 355 00:19:36,840 --> 00:19:34,059 to sleep so the silent hiding the keys 356 00:19:40,200 --> 00:19:36,850 so I went out the kitchen window because 357 00:19:42,150 --> 00:19:40,210 like it's not 300 year old cottage the 358 00:19:45,270 --> 00:19:42,160 kitchen windows about my eye off the go 359 00:19:47,159 --> 00:19:45,280 off the floor literally and so to choose 360 00:19:50,760 --> 00:19:47,169 to open it go out in the back and around 361 00:19:56,770 --> 00:19:50,770 and then I'd cross the road and go into 362 00:20:02,590 --> 00:19:56,780 the field school playing field army on 363 00:20:03,700 --> 00:20:02,600 I remember three oblong not orange not 364 00:20:08,470 --> 00:20:03,710 yellow 365 00:20:11,919 --> 00:20:08,480 not white yeah I know I can make yeah 366 00:20:14,289 --> 00:20:11,929 three oblongs like that next to each 367 00:20:16,990 --> 00:20:14,299 other right now I in my four years 368 00:20:19,810 --> 00:20:17,000 thought they were like halogen 369 00:20:21,460 --> 00:20:19,820 floodlights right and you know but 370 00:20:25,240 --> 00:20:21,470 there's never been any in Monfils 371 00:20:28,180 --> 00:20:25,250 at all ever never been any halogen 372 00:20:30,700 --> 00:20:28,190 lights and I don't even and I think back 373 00:20:34,900 --> 00:20:30,710 then that would have been extremely 374 00:20:38,770 --> 00:20:34,910 fancy for a school playing field 375 00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:38,780 laughs yeah I wasn't going what was I 376 00:20:46,840 --> 00:20:42,410 doing what were them lights anything 377 00:20:50,020 --> 00:20:46,850 after that seen those like one time 378 00:20:52,000 --> 00:20:50,030 being in the room what like what like 379 00:20:54,370 --> 00:20:52,010 walk into a room and there were all 380 00:20:55,720 --> 00:20:54,380 these kids all sat down on the floor and 381 00:20:58,630 --> 00:20:55,730 they all like sweat in there and it's 382 00:21:01,480 --> 00:20:58,640 like a puzzle the wall was like a silver 383 00:21:03,130 --> 00:21:01,490 bit had to kind of wet pink this to it 384 00:21:06,730 --> 00:21:03,140 but that's where the light came from but 385 00:21:08,140 --> 00:21:06,740 there was no like my poor no light come 386 00:21:11,830 --> 00:21:08,150 from anywhere but it's into the coming 387 00:21:14,289 --> 00:21:11,840 from the walls and I just sat down next 388 00:21:16,390 --> 00:21:14,299 to this little girl those stats Inge 389 00:21:18,250 --> 00:21:16,400 might have been from Pakistan also 390 00:21:23,140 --> 00:21:18,260 weren't sure do you know them big frilly 391 00:21:25,600 --> 00:21:23,150 dresses on not the pajamas on I remember 392 00:21:29,740 --> 00:21:25,610 I remember having like day clothes on 393 00:21:31,690 --> 00:21:29,750 and me having day clothes on so I don't 394 00:21:33,400 --> 00:21:31,700 really know what that was but no one was 395 00:21:35,470 --> 00:21:33,410 you know like kids are all know easy out 396 00:21:39,010 --> 00:21:35,480 they can't keep toddlers quiet and there 397 00:21:42,250 --> 00:21:39,020 was a lot that room and don't remember 398 00:21:45,060 --> 00:21:42,260 there being any noise so I'm doing I'm 399 00:21:47,140 --> 00:21:45,070 sitting down just opposite this girl and 400 00:21:49,750 --> 00:21:47,150 getting on with whatever it was that was 401 00:21:53,159 --> 00:21:49,760 in my hand which I can't remember now so 402 00:21:59,650 --> 00:21:53,169 you know I don't know what that was and 403 00:22:01,630 --> 00:21:59,660 then I remember there was started 404 00:22:05,350 --> 00:22:01,640 building a housing estate around us and 405 00:22:10,090 --> 00:22:05,360 so there was like a lot of you know 406 00:22:12,730 --> 00:22:10,100 cabins the workman's yeah and yes 407 00:22:17,350 --> 00:22:12,740 and Tyler and that acts of bricks and 408 00:22:19,600 --> 00:22:17,360 like said there was no safety nothing no 409 00:22:21,370 --> 00:22:19,610 fences nothing all's in the ground 410 00:22:23,289 --> 00:22:21,380 nobody there's watch any what you know 411 00:22:26,650 --> 00:22:23,299 it was it was a terrible terrible mess 412 00:22:29,159 --> 00:22:26,660 anyway I was next with a stack of bricks 413 00:22:31,120 --> 00:22:29,169 and I just have a stick and I was just 414 00:22:32,770 --> 00:22:31,130 digging about in the world I mean a 415 00:22:36,940 --> 00:22:32,780 little think to myself about whatever I 416 00:22:41,610 --> 00:22:36,950 don't even know and looking up at the 417 00:22:45,700 --> 00:22:41,620 sky and seeing this copper looking icon 418 00:22:49,029 --> 00:22:45,710 just hang in there like so let's say if 419 00:22:55,870 --> 00:22:49,039 a little one it move laughter the size 420 00:22:58,029 --> 00:22:55,880 of eater could you kind of its it was 421 00:23:01,060 --> 00:22:58,039 very it was very small it was only like 422 00:23:02,649 --> 00:23:01,070 like that big mini from where I was I 423 00:23:04,870 --> 00:23:02,659 don't know how high up it was or 424 00:23:08,169 --> 00:23:04,880 anything I don't think it was but it was 425 00:23:08,890 --> 00:23:08,179 like shape of an egg calm yeah what was 426 00:23:15,940 --> 00:23:08,900 copper 427 00:23:18,610 --> 00:23:15,950 and then I look down and I look back up 428 00:23:20,380 --> 00:23:18,620 again it had gone I don't know when that 429 00:23:27,010 --> 00:23:20,390 Olivia might have been about six like my 430 00:23:33,419 --> 00:23:27,020 time in about 1976 so in that spooky 431 00:23:39,460 --> 00:23:36,640 in the bedroom we have bunk beds yeah 432 00:23:41,740 --> 00:23:39,470 yeah I would want to go to the toilet 433 00:23:43,840 --> 00:23:41,750 but I would look on the floor and I 434 00:23:45,580 --> 00:23:43,850 could see all these things slithering 435 00:23:49,390 --> 00:23:45,590 like this and they all fit into each 436 00:23:52,149 --> 00:23:49,400 other like there was a kid on the end 437 00:23:54,100 --> 00:23:52,159 and they are all sort of fit as they 438 00:23:55,630 --> 00:23:54,110 moved to right across the plaza I 439 00:23:57,120 --> 00:23:55,640 wouldn't go to the toilet because 440 00:24:00,310 --> 00:23:57,130 everyone 441 00:24:03,010 --> 00:24:00,320 Hana waking up in night because I know 442 00:24:07,060 --> 00:24:03,020 damn well she saying and she walked in 443 00:24:09,549 --> 00:24:07,070 my regular news said is some bumps some 444 00:24:12,279 --> 00:24:09,559 flour and said they'd be kind of like 445 00:24:13,990 --> 00:24:12,289 figures were rising all and then they'd 446 00:24:21,060 --> 00:24:14,000 go back down and another one had to come 447 00:24:23,950 --> 00:24:21,070 up in it you know these were flat like 448 00:24:28,090 --> 00:24:23,960 but they were very wide 449 00:24:31,450 --> 00:24:28,100 snakes we kinda came to a point like 450 00:24:34,090 --> 00:24:31,460 that yeah and they're just sort of as 451 00:24:37,150 --> 00:24:34,100 the wiggled they were all in you know 452 00:24:39,840 --> 00:24:37,160 like like a pattern yeah that'd just be 453 00:24:42,850 --> 00:24:39,850 somewhat then I forgot about one of my 454 00:24:49,060 --> 00:24:42,860 abduction things and I hate that word 455 00:24:52,300 --> 00:24:49,070 but when I was at work once and I said 456 00:24:54,310 --> 00:24:52,310 omnibus enough me lunch anyway at the 457 00:24:59,410 --> 00:24:54,320 yard were totally amped in opposite 458 00:25:02,290 --> 00:24:59,420 sorry I'm back to you in life I've 459 00:25:04,810 --> 00:25:02,300 remembered and then I say me boss 460 00:25:08,160 --> 00:25:04,820 because I were in a work stepper so 461 00:25:11,530 --> 00:25:08,170 that's about it say it boss says and 462 00:25:14,050 --> 00:25:11,540 minibuses and obviously other fuel pumps 463 00:25:17,290 --> 00:25:14,060 where you know all of the council fellow 464 00:25:20,230 --> 00:25:17,300 you've got you've been wagons and you're 465 00:25:23,740 --> 00:25:20,240 straight cleaners and so they all feel 466 00:25:26,170 --> 00:25:23,750 looking out that far and this particular 467 00:25:30,190 --> 00:25:26,180 day right nice clear sunny day no 468 00:25:34,120 --> 00:25:30,200 nobody's about and a Phase two like 469 00:25:37,960 --> 00:25:34,130 arrows white white arrows were like this 470 00:25:40,150 --> 00:25:37,970 I can't explain it's somewhat coming out 471 00:25:43,210 --> 00:25:40,160 a back end of them and they're together 472 00:25:45,790 --> 00:25:43,220 flying together one two like that and 473 00:25:47,860 --> 00:25:45,800 the co-main straight past fuel pumps and 474 00:25:50,290 --> 00:25:47,870 it's like as if the gun into an 475 00:25:52,360 --> 00:25:50,300 invisible wall you know so I got the 476 00:25:54,130 --> 00:25:52,370 middle bait the back end of it and have 477 00:26:05,410 --> 00:25:54,140 gone I don't know what the hell they're 478 00:26:08,740 --> 00:26:05,420 were they reminded me of these compared 479 00:26:10,810 --> 00:26:08,750 to the size of traffic its eyes that 480 00:26:13,030 --> 00:26:10,820 feel prompts which is pretty big they're 481 00:26:15,840 --> 00:26:13,040 probably about two vets up the fence and 482 00:26:19,980 --> 00:26:15,850 that wide and I've said they'll probably 483 00:26:25,770 --> 00:26:19,990 probably wait you know sort of pre-baked 484 00:26:28,810 --> 00:26:25,780 you know yeah what the WHA God knows 485 00:26:31,060 --> 00:26:28,820 just prompted a memory there's something 486 00:26:38,789 --> 00:26:31,070 that happened in 1999 solicitor I didn't 487 00:26:46,090 --> 00:26:42,280 all right so yes the okay little gate I 488 00:26:50,470 --> 00:26:46,100 was and so like I say we're a very small 489 00:26:52,330 --> 00:26:50,480 bathroom and I was not scared to the 490 00:26:54,720 --> 00:26:52,340 dock or anything you know I mean I was 491 00:26:58,810 --> 00:26:54,730 not happened doesn't when I got older 492 00:27:00,520 --> 00:26:58,820 there I went into the bathroom I like 493 00:27:03,070 --> 00:27:00,530 just stared in the mirror and the stared 494 00:27:04,870 --> 00:27:03,080 in me or mine so it's not like um I'm 495 00:27:06,520 --> 00:27:04,880 just there staring into this man 496 00:27:09,340 --> 00:27:06,530 remember the mirror had the bamboo frame 497 00:27:12,730 --> 00:27:09,350 and he had like all these little lines 498 00:27:21,430 --> 00:27:12,740 and a bit of like bamboo painted on the 499 00:27:23,799 --> 00:27:21,440 glass I'm Southern Comfort mirror it's 500 00:27:32,140 --> 00:27:23,809 of Uncle it reminds me then pop mirrors 501 00:27:36,610 --> 00:27:32,150 the ottoman post in the behind optics in 502 00:27:38,590 --> 00:27:36,620 the house it looked cool that quite 503 00:27:41,350 --> 00:27:38,600 actually because it was all bare brick 504 00:27:44,950 --> 00:27:41,360 with just painted over it stuff over it 505 00:27:47,740 --> 00:27:44,960 and then painted it white yeah Japanese 506 00:27:50,200 --> 00:27:47,750 art and it was like really striking 507 00:27:56,049 --> 00:27:50,210 stuff on the walls I remember pretty 508 00:28:02,560 --> 00:27:56,059 cool I'm staring myself in the eyes in 509 00:28:05,830 --> 00:28:02,570 spooky weird uh seven our eight ultimate 510 00:28:08,710 --> 00:28:05,840 like that yes I'm my face is changing 511 00:28:10,450 --> 00:28:08,720 changing tu-tu-tu-tu-tu changed a lot of 512 00:28:13,330 --> 00:28:10,460 times and then it stopped 513 00:28:16,720 --> 00:28:13,340 ooh and it was this old man and he had 514 00:28:21,700 --> 00:28:16,730 like a bit of area and he had a big like 515 00:28:23,890 --> 00:28:21,710 white mustache maybe yeah his eyes I can 516 00:28:26,890 --> 00:28:23,900 remember the crow's feet his eyes and 517 00:28:29,500 --> 00:28:26,900 these well so she can remember it in so 518 00:28:36,280 --> 00:28:29,510 clearly and it like her white shirt and 519 00:28:38,880 --> 00:28:36,290 a shoelace I packed my pants and never 520 00:28:42,070 --> 00:28:38,890 looks in that room again it would like 521 00:28:47,190 --> 00:28:42,080 like they share like spaceship and 522 00:28:56,230 --> 00:28:52,680 mine three of em I told you earn on my 523 00:28:59,380 --> 00:28:56,240 and so David Essex leaves to air when 524 00:29:01,330 --> 00:28:59,390 I'm sorry the cat's down the guy but it 525 00:29:20,919 --> 00:29:01,340 is about him back at stunned everyday 526 00:29:22,980 --> 00:29:20,929 speaks yeah oh right yeah now the 527 00:29:26,169 --> 00:29:22,990 staircase yeah 528 00:29:27,880 --> 00:29:26,179 couple years ago I mean the cow be done 529 00:29:30,159 --> 00:29:27,890 that day it's all like this right 530 00:29:31,690 --> 00:29:30,169 me and my mom get into it dad walks 531 00:29:34,390 --> 00:29:31,700 office that's looking at the plants 532 00:29:39,250 --> 00:29:34,400 anything Adam II just can't deal with it 533 00:29:39,669 --> 00:29:39,260 right he's an atheist when you dead you 534 00:29:46,450 --> 00:29:39,679 dead 535 00:29:48,909 --> 00:29:46,460 that's it so I said to me you know I 536 00:29:51,159 --> 00:29:48,919 said that I had a out-of-body experience 537 00:29:52,899 --> 00:29:51,169 in my house I said that I just thought 538 00:29:56,440 --> 00:29:52,909 I've got to the top of the stairs and I 539 00:29:58,960 --> 00:29:56,450 went down oh [\h__\h] 540 00:30:02,039 --> 00:29:58,970 we're on the wrong wall stairs along the 541 00:30:04,539 --> 00:30:02,049 opposite well and they went oh he says 542 00:30:07,330 --> 00:30:04,549 yo remember when we moved in the stairs 543 00:30:09,610 --> 00:30:07,340 are on the opposite well I was like no I 544 00:30:16,600 --> 00:30:09,620 own everyone but the same opposite the 545 00:30:20,039 --> 00:30:16,610 darnit but hey we'll do rubbish or 546 00:30:23,320 --> 00:30:20,049 whatever because yeah I you know I mean 547 00:30:26,260 --> 00:30:23,330 it was definitely experience that I 548 00:30:27,539 --> 00:30:26,270 remember playing on fall of a place all 549 00:30:30,520 --> 00:30:27,549 the time 550 00:30:36,159 --> 00:30:30,530 I could never sleep so used to do it 551 00:30:37,750 --> 00:30:36,169 like it's I used to still do this now 552 00:30:39,610 --> 00:30:37,760 but I've got told by a psychic to stop 553 00:30:43,570 --> 00:30:39,620 it I know man 554 00:30:45,490 --> 00:30:43,580 and then I can make myself rock and then 555 00:30:47,500 --> 00:30:45,500 I rock him a spin and then I'll spin 556 00:30:49,060 --> 00:30:47,510 this way and I'll spin later when and I 557 00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:49,070 stopped myself or then I go the other 558 00:30:54,970 --> 00:30:52,130 way and it's a sensation only roll 559 00:30:57,220 --> 00:30:54,980 around well then they used to do that as 560 00:30:59,740 --> 00:30:57,230 a kid all the time and then I just took 561 00:31:01,630 --> 00:30:59,750 some point I'd feel it like in every 562 00:31:04,120 --> 00:31:01,640 cell it's like power boots you know like 563 00:31:08,680 --> 00:31:04,130 you see I'm the hits campus is what it 564 00:31:14,359 --> 00:31:12,139 what cat behind it latisha me then cuz 565 00:31:18,590 --> 00:31:14,369 all I could say with these what is it 566 00:31:22,460 --> 00:31:18,600 white fella like us so much ID I know in 567 00:31:24,980 --> 00:31:22,470 in room it look like a scenario white 568 00:31:36,580 --> 00:31:24,990 snake but it's cat I think it's cat 569 00:31:42,169 --> 00:31:36,590 anywhere talking about though forgot 570 00:31:46,159 --> 00:31:42,179 spinning round so like yep laying on the 571 00:31:48,440 --> 00:31:46,169 bed at like say can I stop myself 572 00:31:50,779 --> 00:31:48,450 breathing and then I just guess I was 573 00:31:53,359 --> 00:31:50,789 getting the most shallow Express and 574 00:31:56,029 --> 00:31:53,369 then they said visualizing all kinds of 575 00:32:00,320 --> 00:31:56,039 stuff I used to visualize this brass bed 576 00:32:01,850 --> 00:32:00,330 with a like a patchwork quilt on a that 577 00:32:03,739 --> 00:32:01,860 was on and it was spinning and spinning 578 00:32:04,970 --> 00:32:03,749 and falling there spinning and falling 579 00:32:07,190 --> 00:32:04,980 that's been in the Farley then that 580 00:32:11,359 --> 00:32:07,200 would be I would try and get myself to 581 00:32:15,109 --> 00:32:11,369 sleep yeah spitting and swimming and 582 00:32:18,200 --> 00:32:15,119 flying and stuff so I was doing that a 583 00:32:20,299 --> 00:32:18,210 lot because I just I just couldn't get 584 00:32:21,919 --> 00:32:20,309 to sleep I was always the wait my mom 585 00:32:24,590 --> 00:32:21,929 said that she'd get up even when I was a 586 00:32:26,090 --> 00:32:24,600 little sad where I'd be sneaking out her 587 00:32:28,159 --> 00:32:26,100 bed to put my money's on get me 588 00:32:42,220 --> 00:32:28,169 breakfast you know sitting on the 589 00:32:45,830 --> 00:32:42,230 doorstep and mama B I mean I attack so 590 00:32:50,570 --> 00:32:45,840 the next one's actually it's one my 591 00:32:52,310 --> 00:32:50,580 granddad died and you just have to walk 592 00:32:56,509 --> 00:32:52,320 quite a little away to get the boss to 593 00:32:58,789 --> 00:32:56,519 go to school and let this man in anyway 594 00:33:01,310 --> 00:32:58,799 well as I walked up to get to see 595 00:33:04,600 --> 00:33:01,320 Crescenta to get school I would walk up 596 00:33:10,310 --> 00:33:04,610 red Meyer drive but my granddad lived 597 00:33:12,770 --> 00:33:10,320 this was after we gonna died dad before 598 00:33:16,550 --> 00:33:12,780 he died 599 00:33:19,130 --> 00:33:16,560 I have in that so anyway he comes to the 600 00:33:20,540 --> 00:33:19,140 gate he sees me coming give Mary a 601 00:33:21,950 --> 00:33:20,550 pomegranate you always used to give me a 602 00:33:24,500 --> 00:33:21,960 piece of fruit on the Marmon we had a 603 00:33:27,860 --> 00:33:24,510 little chat whatever that's around I got 604 00:33:31,130 --> 00:33:27,870 off anyway miss the boss school was like 605 00:33:33,380 --> 00:33:31,140 a billion miles where so I walk into 606 00:33:36,770 --> 00:33:33,390 school I'll just walk back home again 607 00:33:41,600 --> 00:33:36,780 so back back home same way around dad's 608 00:33:43,520 --> 00:33:41,610 gay and I stopped dead and just does any 609 00:33:51,830 --> 00:33:43,530 I could eat in the room with you when 610 00:33:55,190 --> 00:33:51,840 I'm at the island rooms that ya know I 611 00:33:56,840 --> 00:33:55,200 better go straight oh why why did I just 612 00:33:58,640 --> 00:33:56,850 walk into the gun doesn't ii that's 613 00:34:03,410 --> 00:33:58,650 obviously boss bring me mom 614 00:34:04,700 --> 00:34:03,420 blah yeah however if i walked into his 615 00:34:17,450 --> 00:34:04,710 house and found him dead 616 00:34:20,720 --> 00:34:17,460 yeah I don't my return whether to go in 617 00:34:22,220 --> 00:34:20,730 or not which is weird because we used to 618 00:34:26,960 --> 00:34:22,230 live in Montgomery and Rhonda 619 00:34:29,149 --> 00:34:26,970 there is no reason why I would not just 620 00:34:30,619 --> 00:34:29,159 walk through that gate like you thinking 621 00:34:33,169 --> 00:34:30,629 well what going to my grandma's when you 622 00:34:35,840 --> 00:34:33,179 live there do not mean it's like that 623 00:34:42,649 --> 00:34:35,850 patient about that yeah but like you'll 624 00:34:44,960 --> 00:34:42,659 finish a little yeah I you know I just 625 00:34:47,990 --> 00:34:44,970 thought know about enough I'll go 626 00:34:50,780 --> 00:34:48,000 straight um so I won't get the phone 627 00:34:52,100 --> 00:34:50,790 call screams walk down thing and she 628 00:34:54,830 --> 00:34:52,110 says I've just got go out and walk along 629 00:34:56,840 --> 00:34:54,840 she walks out that door so she wants to 630 00:34:59,630 --> 00:34:56,850 have that door Iverson it says I was 631 00:35:05,720 --> 00:34:59,640 absolutely inconsolable daddy yeah I 632 00:35:06,680 --> 00:35:05,730 knew open met sorry when I would 21 my 633 00:35:10,190 --> 00:35:06,690 grandma died 634 00:35:12,740 --> 00:35:10,200 so wait before I had two journeys to 635 00:35:15,730 --> 00:35:12,750 Jake first premonition I add what 636 00:35:18,260 --> 00:35:15,740 Lockerbie disaster yeah 637 00:35:20,660 --> 00:35:18,270 first premonition and Mitama grandma 638 00:35:22,220 --> 00:35:20,670 about this anywhere so well I'll talk 639 00:35:26,180 --> 00:35:22,230 about that when it comes to paranormal 640 00:35:28,190 --> 00:35:26,190 side but will night 641 00:35:30,770 --> 00:35:28,200 gonna new dates like mammogram were in 642 00:35:32,720 --> 00:35:30,780 this house machinist of a big double bed 643 00:35:34,819 --> 00:35:32,730 I had the single bed in the corner which 644 00:35:36,230 --> 00:35:34,829 I had to have me mattress on the floor I 645 00:35:41,839 --> 00:35:36,240 would not have a bed 646 00:35:44,839 --> 00:35:41,849 I don't know why anyway so I had a 647 00:35:46,370 --> 00:35:44,849 really really [\h__\h] horrible dream 648 00:35:49,700 --> 00:35:46,380 that at work all because I were at 649 00:35:54,500 --> 00:35:49,710 Bradford College doing air dressing and 650 00:35:55,730 --> 00:35:54,510 I'm in the second year when it and so I 651 00:35:57,770 --> 00:35:55,740 thought well I've got a crack on with 652 00:36:00,319 --> 00:35:57,780 this you know I mean I've got a girl B 653 00:36:04,130 --> 00:36:00,329 exam time soon and that's okay 654 00:36:05,960 --> 00:36:04,140 I always this dream and the dream that 655 00:36:08,510 --> 00:36:05,970 had actually physically got out of bed I 656 00:36:10,490 --> 00:36:08,520 looked at me grandma and I said I'm not 657 00:36:12,770 --> 00:36:10,500 going to college today and she said way 658 00:36:15,829 --> 00:36:12,780 and I went because you know well as I'm 659 00:36:18,470 --> 00:36:15,839 alright what's up will ya so I girls off 660 00:36:20,960 --> 00:36:18,480 to college this is a me dream girls off 661 00:36:23,380 --> 00:36:20,970 to college don't remember though about 662 00:36:25,970 --> 00:36:23,390 that after that away excel and then 663 00:36:28,460 --> 00:36:25,980 telling me friends I've got that poor 664 00:36:29,750 --> 00:36:28,470 you know it when a Friday night must 665 00:36:32,720 --> 00:36:29,760 have been because it's only time when 666 00:36:34,670 --> 00:36:32,730 I'd go out and and I said to my friends 667 00:36:36,050 --> 00:36:34,680 I were worried all day me grandma's 668 00:36:38,030 --> 00:36:36,060 gonna die my grandma's gonna die you 669 00:36:42,050 --> 00:36:38,040 know and I knew it the way that it 670 00:36:43,940 --> 00:36:42,060 played out and I said are don't be silly 671 00:36:45,470 --> 00:36:43,950 you know you grandma's healthy and fit 672 00:36:47,930 --> 00:36:45,480 and this and over I should know she's 673 00:36:52,010 --> 00:36:47,940 gonna die and I stopped going out for 674 00:36:54,290 --> 00:36:52,020 about two week there come and I got out 675 00:36:58,400 --> 00:36:54,300 but you know that deja vu moment you get 676 00:37:02,180 --> 00:36:58,410 well this would a DejaVu three hours so 677 00:37:04,670 --> 00:37:02,190 I get so obeyed sets me alarm gets outta 678 00:37:08,510 --> 00:37:04,680 bed I looked at me now as I did in me 679 00:37:10,670 --> 00:37:08,520 dream and I went and she'd looked ill I 680 00:37:13,160 --> 00:37:10,680 said I'm not going to college and she 681 00:37:15,740 --> 00:37:13,170 said why not I said because you Paulie 682 00:37:16,819 --> 00:37:15,750 you can see your polyhedra quite you 683 00:37:19,250 --> 00:37:16,829 know what I mean she said oh no I'm 684 00:37:20,859 --> 00:37:19,260 alright you'll get yourself off if I 685 00:37:23,240 --> 00:37:20,869 need to meet and I'll give her a ring 686 00:37:25,309 --> 00:37:23,250 that that had made me grandma haven't 687 00:37:28,460 --> 00:37:25,319 come downstairs you know what I mean so 688 00:37:30,109 --> 00:37:28,470 I like to mines and I thought no no no 689 00:37:33,770 --> 00:37:30,119 no she's right you know she'll ring me 690 00:37:35,359 --> 00:37:33,780 sister if our opponents had got to 691 00:37:40,130 --> 00:37:35,369 college and all of a sudden I'm starting 692 00:37:43,940 --> 00:37:40,140 class and I get this it's that way 693 00:37:50,030 --> 00:37:43,950 an AMA in writing quorum e8 not I take 694 00:37:51,770 --> 00:37:50,040 it were in like that and I couldn't see 695 00:37:53,480 --> 00:37:51,780 and I'm like enough this ain't no 696 00:37:55,490 --> 00:37:53,490 migraine because I have suffered a lot 697 00:37:58,340 --> 00:37:55,500 of migraines over McGee is this ain't no 698 00:38:00,500 --> 00:37:58,350 [\h__\h] migraine and I'm like and I'm 699 00:38:03,800 --> 00:38:00,510 feeling sick and I get so right 700 00:38:07,100 --> 00:38:03,810 Oh campaigner Yeah right Yeah right and 701 00:38:09,350 --> 00:38:07,110 I'm like oh god what is enough I'm gonna 702 00:38:10,880 --> 00:38:09,360 throw up I've got pain and me I'm with 703 00:38:16,540 --> 00:38:10,890 her in the Middle East you know what I 704 00:38:19,540 --> 00:38:16,550 mean everything was just down and about 705 00:38:23,660 --> 00:38:19,550 ten minutes later at teach come at da 706 00:38:26,390 --> 00:38:23,670 another head principal can I have a word 707 00:38:28,460 --> 00:38:26,400 with her Allah and teachers that well 708 00:38:33,320 --> 00:38:28,470 she feeling - well he could say all 709 00:38:36,530 --> 00:38:33,330 right you know what made this and this 710 00:38:38,540 --> 00:38:36,540 is no no no I don't you and and next 711 00:38:41,060 --> 00:38:38,550 minute I could see my sister stood 712 00:38:44,240 --> 00:38:41,070 behind her and I went she's dead I 713 00:38:45,830 --> 00:38:44,250 looked up and I'll me mates alight sat 714 00:38:48,620 --> 00:38:45,840 round there and I wait she's dead 715 00:38:51,170 --> 00:38:48,630 insurer and now me it's gonna come out 716 00:38:53,420 --> 00:38:51,180 come out and I'll go no no I don't need 717 00:38:55,010 --> 00:38:53,430 to come out I know what's happened and 718 00:38:58,010 --> 00:38:55,020 literally they had to drag me out of 719 00:39:00,410 --> 00:38:58,020 that class to tell me what I'd already 720 00:39:02,900 --> 00:39:00,420 knew but even though I've told people 721 00:39:05,690 --> 00:39:02,910 already this is what's gonna happen this 722 00:39:09,050 --> 00:39:05,700 is how it's going to play out you know 723 00:39:12,440 --> 00:39:09,060 so your premonitions are there you know 724 00:39:20,060 --> 00:39:12,450 I had that one 725 00:39:21,710 --> 00:39:20,070 oh it's 2017 October I went to the 726 00:39:25,220 --> 00:39:21,720 bathroom don't know I was doing the 727 00:39:29,390 --> 00:39:25,230 bathroom to the toilet or whatever I got 728 00:39:34,600 --> 00:39:29,400 this boom my friend was dead called him 729 00:39:37,610 --> 00:39:34,610 hit I was like I know he's dead and 730 00:39:40,040 --> 00:39:37,620 anyway I was talking to my mum I said oh 731 00:39:41,810 --> 00:39:40,050 my god I've got this awful feeling awful 732 00:39:44,780 --> 00:39:41,820 he's not he's not dead he's all right 733 00:39:48,740 --> 00:39:44,790 she's but I can't it was so right all 734 00:39:52,220 --> 00:39:48,750 that omission so long and yet anyway he 735 00:39:54,270 --> 00:39:52,230 wasn't he was fine until three weeks 736 00:39:59,070 --> 00:39:54,280 later when he hung himself 737 00:40:03,360 --> 00:39:59,080 I think the day I think that would a 738 00:40:07,350 --> 00:40:03,370 nice map it's when he does he know Karl 739 00:40:08,880 --> 00:40:07,360 it going dark side yeah dark side he'd 740 00:40:15,840 --> 00:40:08,890 said that he was walking the black dog 741 00:40:20,310 --> 00:40:15,850 guy from dark side and so I he'd had an 742 00:40:22,230 --> 00:40:20,320 argument with his girlfriend really you 743 00:40:28,080 --> 00:40:22,240 know big and he it just snaps 744 00:40:30,930 --> 00:40:28,090 he had tendencies anyway bipolar but I 745 00:40:35,010 --> 00:40:30,940 knew I knew I knew and then we go out 746 00:40:36,630 --> 00:40:35,020 comes up and she went I've got to tell 747 00:40:38,520 --> 00:40:36,640 you somewhere although I and well I knew 748 00:40:42,090 --> 00:40:38,530 what she wasn't there to appear and we 749 00:40:44,310 --> 00:40:42,100 know when and she went it was like 750 00:40:47,160 --> 00:40:44,320 yesterday I knew it didn't ask 751 00:40:48,690 --> 00:40:47,170 I knew it knew it I knew it like three 752 00:40:49,080 --> 00:40:48,700 weeks and there was nothing what could I 753 00:40:51,720 --> 00:40:49,090 do 754 00:40:54,240 --> 00:40:51,730 like the time before I got a feeling 755 00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:54,250 like that about him it was off walking 756 00:40:58,830 --> 00:40:55,450 around round apparent looking for 757 00:41:01,680 --> 00:40:58,840 somewhere so I'm himself we understand I 758 00:41:04,590 --> 00:41:01,690 mean yeah and I said you know like Nkosi 759 00:41:07,950 --> 00:41:04,600 er you'll come see me or whatever yes 760 00:41:09,840 --> 00:41:07,960 such table by Carla but there's no 761 00:41:12,750 --> 00:41:09,850 mental health services for men is just 762 00:41:14,600 --> 00:41:12,760 like so [\h__\h] by you know if you're not 763 00:41:18,360 --> 00:41:14,610 going to jump off a roof right now then 764 00:41:21,600 --> 00:41:18,370 there's no room for you but one time you 765 00:41:24,390 --> 00:41:21,610 know I got I went to his doctors with 766 00:41:26,850 --> 00:41:24,400 him and I said he's he's gonna kill us 767 00:41:29,370 --> 00:41:26,860 absolutely this weekend he is get a 768 00:41:31,050 --> 00:41:29,380 mount now I can't do anything I can't do 769 00:41:33,240 --> 00:41:31,060 that's up to tell you what IP guys this 770 00:41:37,260 --> 00:41:33,250 weekend I'm coming for your job 771 00:41:39,090 --> 00:41:37,270 yeah she's got him in hospital so it 772 00:41:42,330 --> 00:41:39,100 seemed enough girl looking at all the 773 00:41:44,610 --> 00:41:42,340 leaflets on there a lot this gripping 774 00:41:46,080 --> 00:41:44,620 rack of all these different leaflets for 775 00:41:47,780 --> 00:41:46,090 all different types of people with 776 00:41:51,450 --> 00:41:47,790 different types of mental health issues 777 00:41:54,570 --> 00:41:51,460 single man not a thing one-legged 778 00:41:59,160 --> 00:41:54,580 Vietnamese guy people you know there was 779 00:42:02,700 --> 00:41:59,170 a looking Vietnamese amputee there and I 780 00:42:07,079 --> 00:42:02,710 was like so a Vietnamese amputee has got 781 00:42:11,309 --> 00:42:07,089 a support system but a single man hasn't 782 00:42:13,799 --> 00:42:11,319 anyway so I used to up spooky connection 783 00:42:16,229 --> 00:42:13,809 with him yeah we get that later because 784 00:42:19,739 --> 00:42:16,239 that's that said like in the name is 785 00:42:24,180 --> 00:42:19,749 it'll get to that absolutely mouth [\h__\h] 786 00:42:26,789 --> 00:42:24,190 happened weird right sir 787 00:42:30,630 --> 00:42:26,799 so right my granddad died now my grandma 788 00:42:32,959 --> 00:42:30,640 died at least six months before my 789 00:42:36,120 --> 00:42:32,969 granddad but she died of cancer right 790 00:42:39,269 --> 00:42:36,130 pancreatic cancer it was horrible 791 00:42:42,170 --> 00:42:39,279 you know she it took forever 792 00:42:46,259 --> 00:42:42,180 she just withered away it was just a 793 00:42:48,900 --> 00:42:46,269 rancid death yeah and I knew she was 794 00:42:51,029 --> 00:42:48,910 dead and I went to a funeral and then I 795 00:42:52,890 --> 00:42:51,039 was absolutely out broke and my girl my 796 00:42:55,319 --> 00:42:52,900 granddad to me were my absolute world 797 00:42:57,299 --> 00:42:55,329 you know my granddad was my hero he was 798 00:43:00,120 --> 00:42:57,309 in the Navy I was champion Boxter 799 00:43:03,690 --> 00:43:00,130 champion polo player you know it was a 800 00:43:07,200 --> 00:43:03,700 sergeant in the mo D and I was little 801 00:43:09,259 --> 00:43:07,210 you know like to me he was you know hero 802 00:43:17,430 --> 00:43:09,269 all the men in our family being military 803 00:43:19,109 --> 00:43:17,440 so you know yeah but this military and a 804 00:43:21,450 --> 00:43:19,119 lot of people do have that connection 805 00:43:26,539 --> 00:43:21,460 you know with the abduction thing and 806 00:43:30,029 --> 00:43:26,549 military that my sight my grandma side 807 00:43:34,019 --> 00:43:30,039 fewer military well it were in that time 808 00:43:38,579 --> 00:43:34,029 one you know but we also have that gypsy 809 00:43:40,289 --> 00:43:38,589 connection as well in my family there 810 00:43:42,660 --> 00:43:40,299 was many people who couldn't say that 811 00:43:47,969 --> 00:43:42,670 they weren't connected to somebody in 812 00:43:50,459 --> 00:43:47,979 the military as well because they say 813 00:43:52,739 --> 00:43:50,469 you know like side of it and you say I 814 00:43:55,259 --> 00:43:52,749 don't know whether which part of the 815 00:43:58,979 --> 00:43:55,269 gypsies it Roman ER the Irish side I 816 00:44:01,319 --> 00:43:58,989 don't know but there's also some sort of 817 00:44:05,839 --> 00:44:01,329 connection with abductions in that as 818 00:44:10,709 --> 00:44:05,849 well and so it possibly yeah 819 00:44:15,959 --> 00:44:10,719 yeah yeah like say it's very small 820 00:44:18,660 --> 00:44:15,969 island and you know in the 1970s 1946 821 00:44:19,960 --> 00:44:18,670 wasn't that far away that's like talking 822 00:44:22,900 --> 00:44:19,970 about the eighties 823 00:44:24,309 --> 00:44:22,910 you know after all so stuff that 824 00:44:26,849 --> 00:44:24,319 happened in the eighties it could still 825 00:44:50,060 --> 00:44:26,859 be reeling from it now you know I mean 826 00:44:53,730 --> 00:44:53,130 again it's Janelle summer I don't get a 827 00:44:57,270 --> 00:44:53,740 cold 828 00:45:01,170 --> 00:44:57,280 oh bloody dare and then bloody neighbor 829 00:45:14,370 --> 00:45:01,180 rings it's still recording this call you 830 00:45:19,110 --> 00:45:14,380 know okay okay I'll tell you what break